Disclaimer

I was told that I talked about myself too much on this blog...

Well, let me clarify something. I am not a writer, I don't claim to be a writer, in fact, English is not even my first language. So this blog's sole purpose is to serve as an outlet for my thoughts and events in my life. If someone wants to read it - fine, if not - I can't blame them.

What I am trying to say is: THIS BLOG IS ABOUT ME - DEAL WITH IT!

Well Soccer Stud was absolutely perfect for about 3 days after he came back. He texted me randomly to say "sweet dreams" and see how my day is going and even enjoyed chatting on the phone with me even though he usually hated talking on the phone in general. I was really impressed with the fact that he was trying...

But his "goodness" only lasted for 3 days. I invited him over for dinner on Wed night; he texted me 2 hours later saying that he was having dinner with his roommate and he would call me after he was done eating. Not only did he blow off my invitation, did he call me later that night? Hell no!

Then last night he sent me a text asking about my day like nothing happened! I don't know... it might sound like I am picking on him for every little thing but this kind of behavior seems very disrespectful to me and wouldn't get him very far...

He still has one very little chance with me (just because I still kind of like him and the sex is the best I've ever had) but he really needs to impress me with something right now. Otherwise, he is just not worth my time...

Strange feeling

Report on my Life:

• Work

Absolutely nuts. August is extremely busy. THe back problems set me back. I had to take a few days off work. Feeling much better but trying to make up for the lost time is a B*tch!

• Soccer Stud has been trying. He was out of town till yesterday but called and texted me a few times and didn't make any promises he couldn't keep. I was impressed! He came back last night and we went out for ice cream, then watched a movie and cuddled, then had some amazing sex, of course...

Sounds lovely right? It was. I was excited to see him but I had this strange feeling like we were on the first date and it was kind of awkward at the beginning. The sex was still great but I couldn't help but feel strange about the evening in general...

Is it simply because we haven't seen each other in a while and had some communication issues? Will this change if we hang out a couple more times? Or does this mean that the attraction we once had was gone for good? Was I just so consumed with trying to make sure he was interested in me that I forgot to make sure I was interested?

Crippled

WOW! I have never noticed how much we move our bodies even when we are trying to be still. I have been in excruciating pain for the last 3 days. Finally went to the doctor yesterday. He thinks I have an inflamed disk in my lower back; gave me some medicine and some pain killers. However, the pain killers aren't working for me. It still hurts to sit, stand, walk and pretty much move. I am thinking about chasing the painkillers with a bottle of tequila to intensify the effect.

The real bummer is though is that I can't take any time off work because I am very behind on a lot of projects so I made it to the office and trying to tough it out. We'll see how long that lasts. You should have seen me trying to shave my legs this morning. Considering the fact that I can't bend at all, it was quite an experience :-))

I am going to go continue to feel sorry for myself. Toodles!

Oh, forgot about the big news! Soccer Stud is back! Check out what he wrote:

"Hey Girlie Monkey, I want to apologize about the calling thing and the email thing, I am terrible at calling and replying in a timely manner. It is something that I am trying to work on. I enjoy spending time with you as well and I would like to get to know you better, because I think you are great girl. I don't want you to think that sex is all I am interested in. It has just been very hectic time for me with me not having a cell phone, just finishing up with the season, camps, and traveling for my C License Course. I have also been trying to get a job because I don't have any steady income coming in at the moment. That is another reason I have been hesitant towards you and I want to apologize for that. I just recently got back from Oklahoma. I was there for the first week of my C License Course. I have to leave again this Wednesday. I don't know if you want anything to do with me any more, but I hope that is not the case. I hope to hear from you soon. "