WSS aka White Shirt Sindrome

I consider myself graceful... ok, most of the time... I rarely trip, fall, spill, wipe out, etc. For some reason though, every time I put on a white shirt in the morning I end up with sort of an ugly stain by the end of the day no matter how careful I am!

Today was no exception. I just spilled about a gallon of water on myself. I look like the winner of a wet t-shirt contest! It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to go to an important meeting with clients in about 15 minutes... Guess I'll have to wear a coat to the meeting and make up a story about me being allergic to the cold temperatures or something...

Good news!!!

Guess who might be coming to visit this weekend... Andrew from Memphis! (remember the guy I met at the airport but had to sort of break up with when I met B.)

He called me last night to just chat since we stayed friends and I told him about what happened with B. I let him do his "told you so" song an dance since he was still a little upset about me choosing B. over him... The good news is he still wants me! He said he tried to forget me but couldn't even though he only saw me once for about 45 minutes and that was two months ago!:-)

He asked if I wanted some company and I invited him to come this weekend if he can (he lives 4.5 hours away). He is checking to see if he can get out of a couple of things he had planned on this weekend and will call me back! So excited!

Intuition

I've gotta tell you... We should always listen to what our intuition is telling us... I've been to hell and back in the last three days fighting with my boyfriend over why he's been so distant and weird. I tried to ask him, I tried to reason with him, I tried asking him to come over and talk. He kept denying everything and being wishy-washy. Then he stopped answering my messages and calls. Hadn't heard from him for two days. I had this sick feeling in my stomach because I knew he had to be cheating on me otherwise he wouldn't be treating me that way but I kept trying to supress that still having a little bit of hope left somewhere.

Then, this morning I logged on to check my Facebook (We are both on there) and saw this message on his "wall" from his friend Rich: "Hey man... Did I leave my phone at your girl's house last night? It seems to be missing." Now, it seems harmless except that I've never met this friend so he definitely wasn't at my house last night! That just confirmed my suspicions about B. fooling around behind my back.

I told him to bring my apartment key back and leave under the door rug and put all of his stuff I had at my apartment outside in a plastic bag.

I would have loved to know how we could go from being blissfully happy to this in a matter of a few hours, it seems like but I am afraid I will never know the truth... I am done crying though. Life goes on!

Even more F*cking Pissed Off!

Yeah, so I just have to vent. B. told me he was bowling with friends last night till I finished working and then he was going to come see me. He called me and told me some bullshit story about how he needed to go sit on his friend's wife's dad's (how do you like that!) property 1.5 hours away from Springfield because someone was trespassing and they needed to catch them! He told me that he wouldn't be able to call me because he wouldn't have good reception there, so he'd text (how would he know that before he got there?). I felt so uneasy, couldn't sleep, eat, sit in one place. Well, he finally texted me about 1:30am to tell me he was headed home... Here's the texting conversation we had:
Me: I've gotta ask. Why have you been acting so strange lately?Can you tell me what's bothering you?
B.: I've just been stressed
Me: Whatever it is you can tell me
B.: I know it. I just can't. It is something that's bothering me about my life
Me: Ok... I am really confused now, have been for the last 3 days. So I guess you know how to find me
B.: (30 min later) honey I will figure it out
(What the f*ck???!!! He's been acting weird all week, no cute random text messages, no calling me cute names, avoiding seeing me in person. Not sure if he was lying to me about his excuses, can't prove it but I have my doubts now)
Me: Honey, I don't know what to do or say around the guy you have been this week. You've gotta give me a little more than that. I think I deserve that. If it's something I can help you with, please let me. If it has to do with our relationship, I'd like to know that too.

No answer. Granted it was 3am by then and I guess he can say he fell asleep but I know he didn't. I couldn't sleep the rest of the night at all.

I don't know what the f*ck is going on any more!

Reasonably pissed off or paranoid? Help!

So... I have to admit I am not very good at being in a relationship. I've always been good at getting guys but not very good at keeping them (C'mon, I am 26 y.o. and my longest relationship lasted 3.5 months!) I am not sure what it is that I do wrong, still trying to figure it out.

Here's the situation:
I was sad yesterday. The reason is not important but my boyfriend knew about it. B. had a day off yesterday and I hadn't seen him in a couple of days so I thought he'd find time to hang out with me. He played basketball and racquetball the whole day, then claimed they called him to work for a few hours (could be true, don't know), then he called me about 9pm and told me he was exhausted and he was going to bed. I was kind of pissed off, didn't really tell him that even though he sensed something wasn't right, we'll see what he does today. It's his second day off, he better come up with a good plan for seeing me or I will be too busy to see him for the next week or so!!!

Up until now, I never doubted his words or actions. I always felt like he was truthful, but I had this weird gut feeling for the last couple of days that something wasn't right. I guess that's why I was hoping to see him face to face yesterday so I can try to figure it out.

Am I being to tally unreasonable? Should I say something or just act like everything is fine?

What I've been up to for the last month and a half or so

So many things happened in my life recently! I could have gotten a lot of good posts out of the last two months but, frankly, was a little burnt out on blogging and simply didn't have much free time. I'll try to summarize it.

• I was invited to be on a National Sales Team for my company. Very high honor, especially since I've only been in my Marketing position for a little over a year. Got to travel a lot in the last couple of months. Needless to say, I learned more from this experience than I have in the last 9 years with this company!
• One of the highlights of the traveling experience was getting stuck in Memphis airport for three days on the way home due to a major snow storm that hit this part of the country in December. I ended up teaming up with a couple of ladies that I met at the gate, renting a car and driving through the snow and ice for 6 hours since we were told we couldn't get on a flight for 3 more days! Quite an experience!
• Another highlight of spending quality time at Memphis airport was meeting Andrew, a really cool guy from Memphis. We started out chatting about random things and instantly bonded. We spent the next two weeks talking on the phone 5 times a day. Perfect beginning for a long distance relationship! I hadn't met such a quality guy in a long time...
• Guess what happened next... I guess December was my month of quality guys! I went out on the town with a bunch of girlfriends one Saturday night. The plan was to make it a girls night out, no guys aloud, just lots of dancing and drinking. The plan was going extremely well until I ran into B. I briefly met B. at a football game a month prior to that night. He was a friend of a friend's boyfriend. We seemed to have a connection and he told my friend that I was hot but in the end he chickened out and never asked for my phone number. Whether it was the amount of alcohol we both consumed prior to running into each other that night at the club or the connection that we had the first time we met (or both) but we really hit it off. The girls' night out was ruined because I spent the rest of the night dancing with B. He scored some major points with me by buying all of my girlfriends drinks the whole night, by the way (male readers, take notes!)
• B. and I have been inseparable ever since. Despite the fact that he is almost 4 years younger than me (normally a major turn off for me) he is so mature when it comes to relationships that I don't care about his age. I've had my share of good and bad (mostly bad) boyfriends and nobody has ever treated me so well. He is very attentive, sweet and genuinely nice. At the same time, definitely not a push over, very outgoing and competitive (major turn ons for me). More details to come about B. since we are officially boyfriend and girlfriend and are toying with the "love" word.
• Unfortunately, I had to tell Andrew that nothing was going to happen with us. If only he lived closer than a 6-hour drive from me, things could have been different but I decided to give B. a chance first since he was here now. I haven't regretted this decision yet :-)
• The holidays were fun but kind of a blur. I spent a lot of quality time with friends and family, did a lot of traveling. The two weeks off work that I had flew by way too fast!
• We got hit with a major ice storm in this area last week. The city still looks like a war zone. Just a couple of days ago, 75,000 people were without power, stop lights didn't work, grocery stores were running out of supplies, no gas at the gas stations and broken tree limbs blocking the streets. It's slowly getting better.
• My mother spent the last 6 months staying with my sister 3 hours away from here, so I got to see her every 2 weeks or so. She is leaving on Wed. morning, going back home, which is on the other side of the world. I will be doing a lot of crying once I put her on the plane :-(

Enough for now. Happy belated holidays to you all!

Borat

And I am back again! Not sure if anyone reads this blog any more but I just felt like sharing an opinion today. Here goes...

What is wrong with me? Why am I not going crazy over the whole Borat thing? I saw the previews, and found them funny… But I just can’t bring myself to watch it. I keep making up excuses of the type “the movie is too popular, will be too crowded, and I need air…” But in reality I just don’t think I want to watch it.Maybe if he picked a fake nation. Like Krakozhia in “The Terminal” (in which, surprisingly everyone spoke Russian… but I guess when Hollywood wants to come up with a screwed up fake country, their imagination is still stalled somewhere in the Cold War zone).But he picked a real country. And there is something nasty about that. Just something that leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Cause I honestly doubt that many people know that Kazakhstan is a normal modern country.

How many people in North America have even heard of it before? (What, “no publicity is bad publicity” argument? Yah? Then what happened to the glorious career of Michael Jackson? Not enough publicity?) Even the news that deal with Borat rarely add anything to the statement that Kazakhstan is a former Soviet Republic. Well, it also happens to be worlds 9th largest country by size. And Kazakhs don’t look anything like Borat, by the way. Majority of the population actually looks Asian. The movie footage was shot in Romania. But I guess too many people know Romania to use it as a prop.No, I don’t think the movie is all bad. As I said, I haven’t watched it yet. So I can’t pass that judgment. In fact, apart from the country reference, it might actually be good…But picking on a little country (politically speaking) even if the intent is to make fun of a big one, is kind of low.

Since mostly everything about Kazakhstan was invented why not also invent a dummy country? Is that so hard? Besides, Hollywood already has a “Krakozhia” somewhere in the imaginary Eastern Europe. I’m sure "Boratia" would've been a very happy neighbor.There are opinions out there that Borat’s point is making fun of ignorant people that would actually believe all this nonsense. I agree. Any intelligent person would understand that people don’t drink horse urine or celebrate their sister’s rank in prostitution. But not everyone is intelligent. Flip the news channel any day, and you’ll see proof of that. This is like saying that “***** (fill in the blank) eat babies.” Of course intelligent people would never believe that. But there are enough jerks out there who do, or pretend they do. A movie like that would supply them with more nasty comments then they need.And besides, even though many people won’t believe the ridiculous assertions, nevertheless plenty will walk out of the cinema thinking that Kazakhstan is at least a “backwards” country. You know, one of those “former Soviet Republics” that is probably drugging its existence in the realm of nothingness compared to the “Great First World West”.And that, frankly, p***s me off.

P. S. I'll be back with an update on my life soon!