Kind of like Alice in Wonderland

It's been an interesting week... Update on my boys:

Soccer Stud:

Still MIA. I am having a hard time believing that he would just ignore my message. Not his style plus it doesn't look like he has checked his facebook since I messaged him. As far as I am concerned he might be dead...

Bond:

We've been flirting via phone and facebook for a few weeks now, hung out in a group of friends a few times but it was all coming down to last Fri night. I was supposed to go out with my good friend George and meet up with Bond and some other friends at a certain Bar.

That night I definitely felt like Alice in Wonderland. ..

First of all, George stood me up! He texted me and told me he was going to be a little late (10 instead of 9:30). I was already on my way so I stopped by a friend's house so he could keep me company while I waited. Then George called and said he was coming over in a minute. That was the last time I heard from him that night... But that's no big deal compared to the rest of the evening...

Sooo, we picked up Bond, his brother and D-D (a girl we all know) and finally went to the Bar. First, Bond seemed kind of upset, told me that he had a rough day because he received some bad news from home. Then... he got all lovey-dovey with D-D. At first I thought it was friendly but it was getting more and more graphic, so I was doing my best trying not to look and keep smiling and making conversation with the other guys. I have to give it to Bond's brother and our friend S., they did all they could to distract me! Love them for that!

Then... Bond had the nerve to come over and tell me (after some simple conversation) that he was looking for a girl who would give him an instant rush of adrenalin, that instant attraction when he first met her but it's hard to find. It only happened to him when he met me... WTF? All I could say was "whatever". Then he started saying something about how he wasn't sure I was interested though... Not sure what I was supposed to do there... Jump on him and profess my undying love to him??? I just turned away and went to get a drink.

Him and D-D were all over each other the rest of the night... I thought 1am would never come around. Stupid me left the car at S's place so I couldn't leave plus I didn't want to show that I cared even though it was hard. I had no idea how to act. I thought I was doing pretty good until Bond's brother tried to apologize for Bond's behavior...Then... after throwing some people into the fountain (that's a separate story) we finally went back to S's place and I tried to go home but they wouldn't let me leave. I had to sit there and talk for a while. Talk about uncomfortable! Bond had the nerve to start asking me why I seemed upset! Bond was the one who said I kind of looked like Alice in Wonderland and that was right on! That's exactly how i felt, plus I was wearing a red dress :-)) I finally got out of there fuming! I should have fucking stayed in bed that night!!! Why in the hell would Bond act like he is pursuing me, then get friendly with another girl right in front of me?! Was he trying to make me jealous? Is he just an idiot or a jerk?

On a different note, I have been in horrible pain for the last 3 days. My lower back hurts so bad that I literally can't sit down, walk or bend over. I am miserable and feeling sorry for myself. Going to the doctor this afternoon. Hopefully, it's not kidney stones... Cross some fingers and toes for me!

Update

Still nothing from SS. I was freaking out the whole day yesterday but then... let's just say there is a new interesting boy on the horizon (let's call him Bond)... I spent 3 hours talking to him on the phone last night... I don't even remember the last time I did that with a boy. It just felt so natural! The time flew by!

Sooo, if SS doesn't come through... I have options...

Rollercoasting through vacation week

I am back after my well-deserved vacation week. It was interesting. First of all, I managed to catch a flu, so spent 4 days of my vacation on the couch watching bad day-time tv. The rest of the week went well: visited some friends, ate some good food, had a few drinks and did a little partying.

As far as Soccer Stud goes, it has been an emotional rollercoaster for me. I worked on training him the whole week by not answering his phone calls after he'd disappeared for a few days. It seemed to do the trick, he always got nervous and started calling me more but once we got together and hung out he was back to his ways. Case in point: He came back from a bad game out of town on Saturday night, came straight to my house, was sweet and attentive, watched some tv, talked, etc. He asked me what my plans were for the next day and I told him I was going to the pool and possibly a baseball game. He said he wanted to join me and asked me to call him when I wake up. I called - no answer; texted him around 3pm and told him I was going to the pool and the game at 6pm. He called me back at 9:30pm saying that he just got my text!!!

Anyhow, I had enough. I sent him a message a little while ago telling him that if he is actually interested in dating me he should start putting some effort in and if he is just interested in sex - it's not my thing. "No hard feelings, see you around." Anxiously waiting for a response now.

I know, I know, I should have dumped his ass a long time ago but I still kind of like the guy...

Life is good!

I think I figured out what was wrong with me yesterday:
1. PMS
2. Not hearing from SS for a couple of days

So, I came up with an action plan for making my day better:
1. 1 hour-long nap after work
2. going out for salsa dancing with my best friend D.

I was already starting to feel good on the way to the night club when SS called. We talked for a few minutes, I stopped freaking out about him. The smile came back. Then we texted back and forth throughout the night deciding on meeting up after I got done with dancing...
A little something-something totally did the trick! Crisis averted! Who cares if I stayed up till 5am and went to work at 7:30am. Totally worth it!

Oh, yeah... 1.5 work days till vacation! Woo hoo!

I obviously can't think of anything interesting to write about, so I should go get some work done...

Unusually Crappy Day - is it going to get better from here?

Yes, I am having a blah day... I should have stayed home... I realize that nobody really cares but I really need to vent at the moment. Not that anything major happened, just a lot of little frustrating things...Here's a list of my misfortunes so far (and I've only been awake for about 5 hours, for the record):

• Broke my favorite mug this morning
• Stepped on a piece of the mug with my bare foot, got a nice deep cut and lots of blood around the kitchen floor
• Forgot my to-go coffee that I made for myself this morning
• Got to work and realized that I left my cell phone at home. I really need several phone #s that are saved on there plus I am waiting on an important phone call today...
• Found out that the urgent order for some signage that I placed for my account in Chicago accidentally got shipped to Wisconsin. Not my fault but my boss doesn't exactly care why it happened...
• I need to scan something really quick but my scanner keeps saying that I don't have the needed software installed; then I go to install it and it's there but the scanner is still not working!!!
• I keep trying to tie some loose ends at work before I go on vacation next week but the load keeps getting bigger!

On top of that I could not fall asleep till 3am for some unknown reason so I am tired and cranky!!! Grrrrgh! Is it appropriate to drink at work at 1pm?

Why am I not able to title my posts any more? Grrrrgh!

Here we go. Title: Dating Rules

I believe I've blogged about how I have no clue about dating in general. That's true, folks, I am 27 y. o., have had my share of dates, boyfriends, random drunken make-out buddies, etc but the truth is... I still don't know what's appropriate and what's not.

Here's what I am good at:

• Getting a guy's attention (a lot of times it's unwanted)
• Making an awesome first impression
• Making the 1st date an unforgettable experience
• Getting a 2nd date (I don't believe I've ever been denied a 2nd date)
• That's about it...

Here's where the problems start...

Things I suck at:

• Knowing how often a guy should call during the "dating stage"
• Knowing when to play "hard to get" and when to show interest
• Knowing when having sex is too soon and saying "no"
• Communicating my feelings without freaking the guy out
• Knowing when it is time to introduce him to the friends/family
• I can go on and on...

Basically, I start out being very confident (as I am in all other aspects of life) but once I realize I like the guy, I become an insecure, moping girl that I despise. I freak out if he doesn't call for a day or if he is acting moody. I try to act cool but still panicking on the inside. I know it all comes from my unfortunate past experiences and it hurts my current relationships but not sure how to overcome this. I need some serious help ;-)

Hello my faithful readers (actually, I think I am down to one ;-). Here's an update on my life for you:

Work:

Getting a little better after an intense 3-week long "marathon". Just need to survive this week and I am on vacation for 9 days! Woo hoo!

Love life:

I am still dating Soccer Stud. He was kind of pissing me off last week because he wasn't making much of an effort to see me, even though he occasionally emailed and called. We were supposed to go out for ice cream and hit the hot tub at my place on a Friday night. He called me around 8:30pm that night and started the conversation by saying, "I was going to come see you but..." You should have seen my face... I was about to tell him everything I thought about his behavior that week... then he continued, "C's (C is his friend and business partner) Dad is in town so we are going out for dinner and would like you to join us..." Me: "Oh...ok". He had no idea how close he was to having his head beaten off ;-) Anyhow, I kind of felt like I met "the family" because we ended up having dinner with two of SS's freinds and business partners along with C's Dad. It was great!

Then on Saturday they had the last home game of the season, so I gathered up some friends and went to cheer them on. SS's team won, so we were off to a bar to celebrate. SS was super attentive the whole night making me forget about all of my worries about him. I took him home with me. We had the best sex ever and went to sleep. Then... I had the best Sunday morning ever! We drank coffee, ate breakfast, read the paper and watched tv together for 2-3 hours. I haven't had this with anyone in a while...

Things that SS did and said that made me melt:

• Looked at me like I was the only person around while we were at the bar
• Introduced me to all of his friends
• Held me the whole time we were sleeping
• Gave me lite kisses on the cheek, forehead and arm every time I came back to bed after getting up to go to the bathroom (yes, too much beer makes me pee!)
• Told me about a Brazilian restaurant he wanted to take me to which I secretly have been wanting to go to for a couple of months (he had no idea)

I can go on but I'd stop for now so I don't get carried away. Needless to say, I have a crush! I like that we are taking it slow and not labeling our relationship in any way. Been there, done that... didn't end well.

Back to work for now! So long!