WSS aka White Shirt Sindrome

I consider myself graceful... ok, most of the time... I rarely trip, fall, spill, wipe out, etc. For some reason though, every time I put on a white shirt in the morning I end up with sort of an ugly stain by the end of the day no matter how careful I am!

Today was no exception. I just spilled about a gallon of water on myself. I look like the winner of a wet t-shirt contest! It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to go to an important meeting with clients in about 15 minutes... Guess I'll have to wear a coat to the meeting and make up a story about me being allergic to the cold temperatures or something...

Good news!!!

Guess who might be coming to visit this weekend... Andrew from Memphis! (remember the guy I met at the airport but had to sort of break up with when I met B.)

He called me last night to just chat since we stayed friends and I told him about what happened with B. I let him do his "told you so" song an dance since he was still a little upset about me choosing B. over him... The good news is he still wants me! He said he tried to forget me but couldn't even though he only saw me once for about 45 minutes and that was two months ago!:-)

He asked if I wanted some company and I invited him to come this weekend if he can (he lives 4.5 hours away). He is checking to see if he can get out of a couple of things he had planned on this weekend and will call me back! So excited!

Intuition

I've gotta tell you... We should always listen to what our intuition is telling us... I've been to hell and back in the last three days fighting with my boyfriend over why he's been so distant and weird. I tried to ask him, I tried to reason with him, I tried asking him to come over and talk. He kept denying everything and being wishy-washy. Then he stopped answering my messages and calls. Hadn't heard from him for two days. I had this sick feeling in my stomach because I knew he had to be cheating on me otherwise he wouldn't be treating me that way but I kept trying to supress that still having a little bit of hope left somewhere.

Then, this morning I logged on to check my Facebook (We are both on there) and saw this message on his "wall" from his friend Rich: "Hey man... Did I leave my phone at your girl's house last night? It seems to be missing." Now, it seems harmless except that I've never met this friend so he definitely wasn't at my house last night! That just confirmed my suspicions about B. fooling around behind my back.

I told him to bring my apartment key back and leave under the door rug and put all of his stuff I had at my apartment outside in a plastic bag.

I would have loved to know how we could go from being blissfully happy to this in a matter of a few hours, it seems like but I am afraid I will never know the truth... I am done crying though. Life goes on!

Even more F*cking Pissed Off!

Yeah, so I just have to vent. B. told me he was bowling with friends last night till I finished working and then he was going to come see me. He called me and told me some bullshit story about how he needed to go sit on his friend's wife's dad's (how do you like that!) property 1.5 hours away from Springfield because someone was trespassing and they needed to catch them! He told me that he wouldn't be able to call me because he wouldn't have good reception there, so he'd text (how would he know that before he got there?). I felt so uneasy, couldn't sleep, eat, sit in one place. Well, he finally texted me about 1:30am to tell me he was headed home... Here's the texting conversation we had:
Me: I've gotta ask. Why have you been acting so strange lately?Can you tell me what's bothering you?
B.: I've just been stressed
Me: Whatever it is you can tell me
B.: I know it. I just can't. It is something that's bothering me about my life
Me: Ok... I am really confused now, have been for the last 3 days. So I guess you know how to find me
B.: (30 min later) honey I will figure it out
(What the f*ck???!!! He's been acting weird all week, no cute random text messages, no calling me cute names, avoiding seeing me in person. Not sure if he was lying to me about his excuses, can't prove it but I have my doubts now)
Me: Honey, I don't know what to do or say around the guy you have been this week. You've gotta give me a little more than that. I think I deserve that. If it's something I can help you with, please let me. If it has to do with our relationship, I'd like to know that too.

No answer. Granted it was 3am by then and I guess he can say he fell asleep but I know he didn't. I couldn't sleep the rest of the night at all.

I don't know what the f*ck is going on any more!

Reasonably pissed off or paranoid? Help!

So... I have to admit I am not very good at being in a relationship. I've always been good at getting guys but not very good at keeping them (C'mon, I am 26 y.o. and my longest relationship lasted 3.5 months!) I am not sure what it is that I do wrong, still trying to figure it out.

Here's the situation:
I was sad yesterday. The reason is not important but my boyfriend knew about it. B. had a day off yesterday and I hadn't seen him in a couple of days so I thought he'd find time to hang out with me. He played basketball and racquetball the whole day, then claimed they called him to work for a few hours (could be true, don't know), then he called me about 9pm and told me he was exhausted and he was going to bed. I was kind of pissed off, didn't really tell him that even though he sensed something wasn't right, we'll see what he does today. It's his second day off, he better come up with a good plan for seeing me or I will be too busy to see him for the next week or so!!!

Up until now, I never doubted his words or actions. I always felt like he was truthful, but I had this weird gut feeling for the last couple of days that something wasn't right. I guess that's why I was hoping to see him face to face yesterday so I can try to figure it out.

Am I being to tally unreasonable? Should I say something or just act like everything is fine?

What I've been up to for the last month and a half or so

So many things happened in my life recently! I could have gotten a lot of good posts out of the last two months but, frankly, was a little burnt out on blogging and simply didn't have much free time. I'll try to summarize it.

• I was invited to be on a National Sales Team for my company. Very high honor, especially since I've only been in my Marketing position for a little over a year. Got to travel a lot in the last couple of months. Needless to say, I learned more from this experience than I have in the last 9 years with this company!
• One of the highlights of the traveling experience was getting stuck in Memphis airport for three days on the way home due to a major snow storm that hit this part of the country in December. I ended up teaming up with a couple of ladies that I met at the gate, renting a car and driving through the snow and ice for 6 hours since we were told we couldn't get on a flight for 3 more days! Quite an experience!
• Another highlight of spending quality time at Memphis airport was meeting Andrew, a really cool guy from Memphis. We started out chatting about random things and instantly bonded. We spent the next two weeks talking on the phone 5 times a day. Perfect beginning for a long distance relationship! I hadn't met such a quality guy in a long time...
• Guess what happened next... I guess December was my month of quality guys! I went out on the town with a bunch of girlfriends one Saturday night. The plan was to make it a girls night out, no guys aloud, just lots of dancing and drinking. The plan was going extremely well until I ran into B. I briefly met B. at a football game a month prior to that night. He was a friend of a friend's boyfriend. We seemed to have a connection and he told my friend that I was hot but in the end he chickened out and never asked for my phone number. Whether it was the amount of alcohol we both consumed prior to running into each other that night at the club or the connection that we had the first time we met (or both) but we really hit it off. The girls' night out was ruined because I spent the rest of the night dancing with B. He scored some major points with me by buying all of my girlfriends drinks the whole night, by the way (male readers, take notes!)
• B. and I have been inseparable ever since. Despite the fact that he is almost 4 years younger than me (normally a major turn off for me) he is so mature when it comes to relationships that I don't care about his age. I've had my share of good and bad (mostly bad) boyfriends and nobody has ever treated me so well. He is very attentive, sweet and genuinely nice. At the same time, definitely not a push over, very outgoing and competitive (major turn ons for me). More details to come about B. since we are officially boyfriend and girlfriend and are toying with the "love" word.
• Unfortunately, I had to tell Andrew that nothing was going to happen with us. If only he lived closer than a 6-hour drive from me, things could have been different but I decided to give B. a chance first since he was here now. I haven't regretted this decision yet :-)
• The holidays were fun but kind of a blur. I spent a lot of quality time with friends and family, did a lot of traveling. The two weeks off work that I had flew by way too fast!
• We got hit with a major ice storm in this area last week. The city still looks like a war zone. Just a couple of days ago, 75,000 people were without power, stop lights didn't work, grocery stores were running out of supplies, no gas at the gas stations and broken tree limbs blocking the streets. It's slowly getting better.
• My mother spent the last 6 months staying with my sister 3 hours away from here, so I got to see her every 2 weeks or so. She is leaving on Wed. morning, going back home, which is on the other side of the world. I will be doing a lot of crying once I put her on the plane :-(

Enough for now. Happy belated holidays to you all!

Borat

And I am back again! Not sure if anyone reads this blog any more but I just felt like sharing an opinion today. Here goes...

What is wrong with me? Why am I not going crazy over the whole Borat thing? I saw the previews, and found them funny… But I just can’t bring myself to watch it. I keep making up excuses of the type “the movie is too popular, will be too crowded, and I need air…” But in reality I just don’t think I want to watch it.Maybe if he picked a fake nation. Like Krakozhia in “The Terminal” (in which, surprisingly everyone spoke Russian… but I guess when Hollywood wants to come up with a screwed up fake country, their imagination is still stalled somewhere in the Cold War zone).But he picked a real country. And there is something nasty about that. Just something that leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Cause I honestly doubt that many people know that Kazakhstan is a normal modern country.

How many people in North America have even heard of it before? (What, “no publicity is bad publicity” argument? Yah? Then what happened to the glorious career of Michael Jackson? Not enough publicity?) Even the news that deal with Borat rarely add anything to the statement that Kazakhstan is a former Soviet Republic. Well, it also happens to be worlds 9th largest country by size. And Kazakhs don’t look anything like Borat, by the way. Majority of the population actually looks Asian. The movie footage was shot in Romania. But I guess too many people know Romania to use it as a prop.No, I don’t think the movie is all bad. As I said, I haven’t watched it yet. So I can’t pass that judgment. In fact, apart from the country reference, it might actually be good…But picking on a little country (politically speaking) even if the intent is to make fun of a big one, is kind of low.

Since mostly everything about Kazakhstan was invented why not also invent a dummy country? Is that so hard? Besides, Hollywood already has a “Krakozhia” somewhere in the imaginary Eastern Europe. I’m sure "Boratia" would've been a very happy neighbor.There are opinions out there that Borat’s point is making fun of ignorant people that would actually believe all this nonsense. I agree. Any intelligent person would understand that people don’t drink horse urine or celebrate their sister’s rank in prostitution. But not everyone is intelligent. Flip the news channel any day, and you’ll see proof of that. This is like saying that “***** (fill in the blank) eat babies.” Of course intelligent people would never believe that. But there are enough jerks out there who do, or pretend they do. A movie like that would supply them with more nasty comments then they need.And besides, even though many people won’t believe the ridiculous assertions, nevertheless plenty will walk out of the cinema thinking that Kazakhstan is at least a “backwards” country. You know, one of those “former Soviet Republics” that is probably drugging its existence in the realm of nothingness compared to the “Great First World West”.And that, frankly, p***s me off.

P. S. I'll be back with an update on my life soon!

I'm back!

I feel so bad about being away from my blog for so long! A lot of things happened in the last couple of weeks! I will be sure to catch you up. In the mean time, I'd like to share some words of wisdom. I hate when people ask me why I am still single but it's a valid question. I was thinking about what the real answer to that would be (what I usually say to people is "How often do you have sex with your husband?", I think it's a fair answer to the "single" question). In reality though, I couldn't really put it into words until someone shared this quote with me today:

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful, who calls you back when you hang up on him, will stay awake just to watch you sleep...wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world even when you're in sweats, who thinks you're the prettiest when you have no make up on, the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you... wait for the one who turns to his friends and says "that's her."

This is exactly why I've been single for so long. This is what I've been looking for! I think I may have found that guy...

Happy Monday!

Sin City - Installment #3

So, did you think Adrian's efforts paid off? Of course! I gave him my email address at the end of the night (before I stumbled to my room and took a nap for about an hour)! That's all he wanted, right? ;-)

The next morning was even rougher. It took twice as much Starbucks coffee to make me coherent. More work had to be done during the day.

Once we were done with that, we had a plan to go to the Venetian and have dinner. It seemed like it was very close to our hotel so we walked. After 2 hours of walking we made it there. The wait for a table at every restaurant was at least 2 hours... We ate at the buffett in Harrah's (it was fairly disgusting but my displeasure may have been intensified by the fact that the blisters on my feet that I got from walking for 2 hours started bleeding...). A couple of hours of shopping later (mostly "window") we got to enjoy a comedy show. The show was good but it was even funnier for us because one of the guys in our group managed to get wasted somewhere before the show and fell asleep in his chair in the front row while all of our bosses watched him. We took pictures, the comedians made fun of him. Embarassing for him - funny for us. Lesson learned: "When you are travelling on business, wait till your bosses go to bed before you start getting wasted!"

The rest of the night was spent gambling and drinking again. Most of my new friends had flights to catch at 4 or 5 am so they decided not to go to bed. Mine wasn't till 11am but I had to keep my friends company, so I stayed up too. Yes, I am a team player!

I actually won some money that night but Adrian showed up again and gave me a few more chips to play with. Around 2 am he proposed to me. I still had a few chips left so we couldn't get married right then. We played some more. My friends needed to go take a shower before heading to the airport, so it was time for me to take a nap for a couple of hours. Adrian inquired about that wedding that was in the works. I told him I was too tired. He said he would like me to come to visit him in Germany. I told him to email me :-)

Sin City - Installment #2

Well, let me take a step back and tell you the story about an older guy that Rene and I encountered at a restaurant on Monday night.

He was sitting at a table next to us by himself. We started chatting about nothing (we were starved, so a meaningless conversation was supposed to help suppress that hunger till our food arrived): where are you from, what are you here for, blah-blah-blah.
Me: I live in Missouri
Older Guy (OG): Oh... I think I have a sister in Missouri
Me: You think? You must not have been keeping in contact
OG: Well, it migh be her sons that live there
Me: You don't know where your nephews live either?
OG: She is not really my sister... My sister died and her soul reincarnated into this woman's body
Me and Rene:?????(puzzled looks, suppressing giggles)

Changing the subject. We started talking about our flights to Vegas.
OG: My son controls air traffic!
Me: That sounds like a great job. He must be enjoying it.
OG: He is... He just turned 5 years old last month...
Me and Rene:??????
This is when I started drinking heavily so can't remember how it all ended...

Tuesday.
We had to do some work on Tuesday from 8am till about 5pm (it took a lot of Starbucks to get us going in the morning. Luckily, there was one in the building where we were meeting). Once we got done, Rene and I had a plan to just walk around the strip and check out different casinos. I won't go into details but we saw some amazing stuff! After eating good food and having a few drinks, we ended up back at our hotel/casino and decided to play some Black Jack.

Now, I am a highroller so I had to wait for a table with $5 min. bets to open up :-) We were having a good time and I noticed this guy sitting at another black jack table who was staring at me. I was intrigued. He came over and took a seat at our table and introduced himself. His name was Adrian and he was from Germany, in Vegas on business. Shortly after that, I lost the amount of money I was planning on loosing that night so I was getting ready to go to sleep. As soon as I announced that I was leaving the table after my last chip is gone, Adrian started giving me his chips to play with just so I will stay longer. Loosing someone else's money is a lot more fun so I stayed... He was thrilled...

To be continued....

Sin City was a blast!

Well, I've been back from Vegas for a few days but was so exhausted from not sleeping for 3 nights :-) that I tried to take lots of naps for a while and then it turned out that I managed to catch a cold somewhere in my travels so I've been sicker than a dog for the last two days. I even left work after being there for only 2 hours today. Considering the fact that I've only taken 3 sick days in the last 8 years, it's pretty serious. I am planning on being better by tomorrow morning though!

Vegas... It was exactly what I expected and then some! I can't say that I've committed any sins that I can't share with the world (fortunately or unfortunately :-)
Monday night:
I arrived around 6:30pm and grabbed a cab to the hotel. Even though I didn't know anyone coming to this conference, I talked to one of the girls via email ahead of time. Rene and I agreed to get together and do something on Mon. night upon arrival.

We freshened up and headed out to explore the city. Had dinner at Stack, a fabulous restaurant at the Mirage Casino. Met a crazy guy (remember this one, I'll give you a recap of our conversation with him some other time.)

Rene said that a friend of hers was from Vegas, so she called a friend of a friend of a friend who was a concierge and knew about what was going on in the city. He put us on the VIP list at Jet (the hottest nightclub at the Mirage). We were seriously scared that the bouncers will kick us out because we had no tickets, we just knew a name to ask for, and then tell this guy we knew so and so. Amazingly, it worked! It was the coolest club I've ever been to. Even though we were pretty tired from the trip, we powered through it and danced till 3 am.

By the way, I was blown away by the guys with brooms, flashlights and dustpans at this club. They appeared out of nowhere within a second of someone dropping or spilling something! Unreal!

Needless to say, the next morning was rough but there was so little time and so many things to see and do...

To be continued...

I'm off to Vegas tomorrow morning! I might tell you some stories when I get back... but you know what they say...

Important ponderable everyone should ponder.

I think about random stuff a lot. I thought of most of these on my own. The rest are the random thoughts of my friends that have no copy rights to them :-)

* If Fed Ex and UPS were to merge, would they call it Fed UP?

* I believe five out of four people have trouble with fractions.

* If quitters never win, and winners never quit, what fool came up with, "Quit while you're ahead"?

* Do Lipton Tea employees take coffee breaks?

* What hair color do they put on the driver's licenses of bald men?

* I was thinking that women should put pictures of missing husbands on beer cans.

* I was thinking about how people seem to read the Bible a whole lot more as they get older, then it dawned on me . . . they were cramming for their finals.

* I thought about how mothers feed their babies with little tiny spoons and forks so I wonder what Chinese mothers use. Perhaps toothpicks?

* Why do they put pictures of criminals up in the Post Office? What are we supposed to do . . . write to these men? Why don't they just put their pictures on the postage stamps so the mailmen could look for them while they delivered the mail?

* Never agree to plastic surgery if the doctor's office is full of portraits by Picasso.

* How much deeper would oceans be if sponges didn't live there?

* If it's true that we are here to help others, then what exactly are the OTHERS here for?

* STRESSED spelled backwards is DESSERTS.

* You never really learn to swear until you learn to drive.

* Clones are people too.

* If a man says something in the woods and there are no women there is he still wrong?

* No one ever says "It's only a game," when their team is winning.

* If you can't be kind, at least have the decency to be vague.

* Ever wonder what the speed of lightning would be if it didn't zigzag?

* Nostalgia isn't what it used to be.

* Think "honk" if you're telepathic.

* Last night I played a blank tape at full blast. The mime next door went nuts.

* If a person with multiple personalities threatens suicide, is that considered a hostage situation?

* If a cow laughed, would milk come out her nose?

* If olive oil comes from olives, where does baby oil come from?

* So what's the speed of dark?

* Why don't they just make mouse-flavored cat food?

* If you're sending someone some Styrofoam, what do you pack it in?

* I just got skylights put in my place. The people who live above me are furious.

* Why do they sterilize needles for lethal injections?

* Is it true that cannibals don't eat clowns because they taste funny?

* If it's tourist season, why can't we shoot them?

* Disney World is a people trap operated by a mouse?

* Since light travels faster than sound, isn't that why some people appear bright until you hear them speak?

* If it's zero degrees outside today and it's supposed to be twice as cold tomorrow, how cold is it going to be?

* Why do you press harder on a remote-control when you know the battery is dead?

* Since Americans throw rice at weddings, do Asians throw hamburgers?

* Why are they called buildings, when they're already finished? Shouldn't they be called builts?

Hysterical!

Check out the blog I've discovered: To Do: 1. Get Hobby, 2. Floss . This girl is so hilarious - I almost peed my pants reading her blog (and that hasn't happened to me since I was 2 y.o., mind you)!

Saturday night

Well, Saturday night was a blast! Needless to say, we never even made it into any of the bars during the pub crawl. We didn't get downtown till about 11pm and each bar had a line of about 200 people! We ended up going to one of the pool halls nearby but we had a blast!
I am still recovering today! Why do the hangovers last so long when you get older?!

By the way, I did something stupid while I was drunk that night: I made out with one of my new friends N. (he introduced me to a whole bunch of people who I'd like to stay friends with but have no intentions of dating N. and I think he is counting on that...) I hope I can find my way out of this one... Don't want to loose all of these new friends I just acquired...

Spooktacular!

It's official! I have decided on a costume. Halloween Pub Crawl is the biggest night of the year as far as the nightlife goes around here, so I've been under a lot of pressure trying to figure out what I am going to go as. I wanted to be something super sexy (what other night you can dress up very slutty and get away with it)! I dug through millions of costumes: naughty nurses, French maids, pirates, playboy bunnies and other "any male fantasy staples"... none of them seemed fun and original... The final verdict: "half angel, half devil", not sure of what to call it yet but it's going to be cool. I have a white and red dress (the white half is very angelic and the red part is very devilish), I also have a hair piece with red horns and a halo and wings (one white, one red), oh, not to mention the red tail :-) Love it! I need to lose about 2 lbs in the next two days to make it fit perfectly but that's a minor detail...

To tell you the truth, I am not sure who I am going out with on Saturday but I missed out on dressing up and going out for the last 3 Halloweens, not letting it happen this year! Even if I have to go by myself!

Can you tell I am excited? :-)

Oops

Ok, I admit it. I slipped up. I went out with Andy (ex-boyfriend) on Thur. night. I shouldn't have but I was so bored and he texted me and told me what bar him and his friends were at and asked me to join them. We had a few drinks, watched the baseball game and chatted. I went home all by myself though! Proud of it :-).

Andy and I have a very strange relationship. I don't know what to think of it. I know he is not "the one" but we have such a good time when we are together that I can't give him up. I think he was seriously in love with me when we first met, we talked every day and spent just about every night together but then something snapped and he disappeared for 2 weeks. When he tried to pick up where we left off two weeks later, I dumped him. We didn't see each other or talk for about 3 months, then, we started running into each other here and there. We've been sort of "dating"for the last couple of months but I wouldn't call it "dating" any more...

I am just thinking out loud here. Not sure what to do with him...

P.S. Angel, thanks for trying to help me with my computer.

Any Computer Experts Out There?

I need help! I got a new laptop and it doesn't let me access certain password-protected sites (including "Blogger"), so I can't blog from home. All of the "help" menus tell me to enable cookies, which I did but it still didn't help. What do I do if my browser doesn't support enabling cookies? Any ideas? I would appreciate any help.

I am trying to get out of work early today, so I can do some shopping. I am planning on going out with some new friends that I found. We'll see how that goes. Then, I am off to my sister's for the weekend to celebrate my niece's 3rd birthday. Should be a lot of fun.

Have a great weekend!

GM

Quick Note

I am crazy busy at work today. Just wanted to note that ever since I posted the open letter yesterday, two of the guys I was addressing tried to call and text me. I haven't heard from either one of them in 2-3 weeks. How funny is that! It was pretty easy to ignore them because I am so busy this week and have the upcoming weekend jam-packed with activities. I'll try to be that strong when I have nothing to do on a Sat. or Fri night... Baby steps :-)

Gotta run. Might add something later.